hi everyone out there :-) i've not been blogging for quite a long long time already , its because of school and my end of year examination . Today was the last paper yay like finally its the end!
So since its just a start of the new month , october. I would like to share to you guys what i gone thru these few months.. i can't say its a happy thing that happened or whatever. i'm not trying to get any attention or anything , i just wanna relieve everything here. If you hate me or wtv just leave cos i know i got haters that will just say i'm attention seeking and all , but i'm not , just wanna express my feelings ? .. & this post is gonna be long but if you aren't interested in this post then its ok. :-)

yeah let's start. i bet some of you has family problems right? yeah i have it too , at that period of time , i felt really really tired its just like those feeling you get when your parents quarrel because of you , all because of you, you may think that my problem just sound so small actually its not. its worse than what you think it is . well i knew exactly how you guys feel to those ppl who has experienced this. To some of you out there , some of you guys aren't living with both your parents , idky , idk whats the reason but no matter what just stay happy , this may all be what the god has planned for you , be happy for you have and not be greedy for what you dont have. :) i watched alot of my favourite youtubers , they made video on depression and all yknow all those girls and boys who wanted to commit sucide because of their family problems, those problems that made them feel depressed and all ? no don't commit sucide , don't give up. I'm not a expert in convincing others and all but well just don't be silly. You have a perfect life , appreciate it , make it better , dont just end it like that . its stupid . i hope you guys learnt something from here , stay strong , you're beautiful :')
Next , its about boy-girl relationship and all tht love problems. i won't deny but i do have a crush well he's not rly my crush rn as my feelings for him changed alot so yeah. But he's a liar , he lied again and again . he thought lying would make me feel better but no he's wrong , the feelings sucks , yes it sucks totally. imagine whats the feeling when someone you rly love or like lied to you . He once said a rly rly touching message to me but guess what ? he admitted he was lying , what a JERK hah . i regretted knowing him , i regretted doing all those shits for him , i regretted spending my time just to talk to him. but no , everything was simply a LIE , total LIE. ( this , exactly , look below )

 the worse thing is , he treated me like a ball , whenever he feels tired of me , he just simply kick me aside , totally ignore me . And when he is bored , no one to talk to? he came to me again . like a spare tyre * sigh * i knew from then , I WAS JUST A REPLACEMENT . when he's upset , i was the one who cheered him up but guess what? he said i didn't he even said that it was his other friends who did it . wow ..
here's a tip , don't be too attached to someone , cos he/she might just leave you and you're going to be forced to let go and get hurt . x
i know some of you girls out there or boys too who cut , please stop , i did it before , i understand the pain you're feeling , but stop , you're given perfect wrists , thighs , limbs and body , stop hurting it. yeah there's other solution to relieve stress and all but please don't cut . remember you still have those ppl who love , family , friends etc. lets stay happy and stop being so melancholy ( sad ) :-)) *hugs*


There's actually a last issue i wanna share but i'm too tired i guess and this post is getting long . have a nice day and remember not to give up , live life and love your amazing life xoxo ~ love you all bye :-) will upload a post on monday again! see ya (-: stay happy everyone ! you're fabulous .
                                   

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 ending of this post with this cute picture! be happy , xoxo .